First of all I'm not dead, and this is not a suicidal letter. (Don't get your hopes up.) I'm perfectly fine and writing this while eating Pop Tarts. Joking aside, It's been almost 1 year since we've been together. I remember from the first time we met you told me that you'll never fall in love. At first, I thought you were just a dumbass that way, but I realized you were just scared of someone finally accepting who you are and looking at you differently than Feli's fratello. I understand completely and I would like to thank you for giving me a chance to love you.
Still, I know you're weary. Haven't I proved myself to you? Perhaps not, because when I try to cuddle with you, you would just hug me and let go shortly. I feel so distant around you. I hope you know I'm not like the rest.
I just want you to know that I'm always here for you, whether I'm your girlfriend or not. I know you feel like it's wrong at first, to fall in love but remember that life isn't that long so you should lighten up a bit. You may say that you're okay and smile, but I know that's just your disguise to hide the ache in your heart.
I'll try my best Lovi, to prove that I care about you. You may be a bastard, but YOU'RE my bastard.
I read the letter bella (y/n) wrote. I just came home from a business meeting that took about 4 days. missed (y/n) so much. Her smile and her eyes, She made me feel better. When I saw the letter, I really thought she....passed away. After she reassure me that she's not, (she knows me too well) I read the whole thing. I bit my lip, "Fuck, She thinks that I don't love her" I cursed myself. That's when I realized I was stupid. I never let her feel that I need her, I always thought that she knows it and I don't need to show it. I was fucking WRONG. I raced back to my car, going to (y/n) house. She's the thing why I'm still breathing now. (Besides tomatoes and air) Yeah, I'm still not over the fact that I'm a little jealous of fratello but I'll try just for her.
(y/n) the only one I'll give my heart to. Even thought It's scarred, I'll try my best just for mi ragazza.